Hey look at this, I'm not dead!!!Author: Sid6.9 ()
Date: 2000-05-17 00:00:00
Well it's been quite sometime since I last posted, in fact, it's been over 4 weeks I think now. I just first want to appologize for not being here at all. I could have at least stopped by every now and then, but I didn't. Sorry, I have just been real busy with a certain someone.
It's weird, cause 4 weeks ago, there was this girl that I really liked, alot, that I worked with. I talked to Tridus about it, and told him about me sending an e-mail to her and all, and that I couldn't even write cause I just thought about her and her alone. He read the e-mail I sent and said it was good and to not worry, she would write back or call. Well she did, she wrote back and about 1 week later we went out. Now we are serious with one another and all of my spare time has been devoted to her. Which in essence kinda makes something have to be put on the back burner, in essence, doing the stories and even being a part of the net community. I'm sorry, I should have posted something earlier about this and why I may be gone, but didn't.
So Tridus called me just a little bit ago to ask if everything was all right and all. And of course it is, it's just that this woman is awesome, and all of my time has been devoted to her. I really can't explain my feelings about her as I never have felt this way about someone before. It's weird cause we have so much in common, and that we have the same type of moral backgrounds that we feel like we have known each other all of our lives. It may be because we lived similar lives probably, but still, it's strange cause we know what each other is thinking before we even think it. Also, she is the first woman that I ever could talk about anything to, without fear of repurcussions of what I may say or ask. And she is the same way. The fear of a relationship is not there, like it normally is. Like the fear of "Well does she like me?" or "Am I doing the right thing?" I know this is right, I don't have to ask myself that, and neither does she. So in a way you could say, I AM IN LOVE. Although we haven't said those words yet, we both already know it.
So that brings me to why I haven't been around, that's it. Not that I meant to not be around, it's just when I was, no one else was on ICQ. Usually at 2 in the morning, although I did talk to Kwerkey a little bit last Sunday. I will probably be getting on more and more as the weeks go by, but probably won't be on nearly as much as I used to be.
What does this mean about the death matches you ask. Well, I did have the opportunity over the last few weeks, and really, the War Room just isn't the same as it used to be. Seems like alot of people have lost interest in posting there, as you can tell from the decreased posts there. Also with the feelings I'm having with Nancy (That's her name) I really have been having problems even writing at all. So I think, for right now, with the decreased posts in the WR and that I'm having mental issues, I think I am going to discontinue the Death Matches right now. This doesn't mean that I won't ever get back to them, just means that they will be in limbo, due to the fact that my energy right now is being placed in a new direction and all. I will do a finish to the season, so nothing is limbo, I really wanted 4 weeks to do that, but I think I can come up with something to finish off the season, and still make it good. My girl is going to Cali for a week so I think I can get that out, I hope as long as my mind doesn't turn to mush missing her, heh heh.
I really did enjoy writing them, and still do. My love for doing them isn't dead, but my passion has kinda waned a bit. I guess my passion is just being re-directed. Love will do that to you heh heh.
Actually I still want to write, and actually will be doing a new type of writing series. I don't want to spoil it right now, and actually am working on the opening story. When I finish it, probably this Sunday, I will post it.
I really do enjoy talking with you all, and enjoy being a part of everyones lives on this forum. I'm sorry I haven't been around, and you can probably expect to not see me all that much. But I will make the effort to be around more, but with my current state, my attention has well, been grabbed by someone else it makes it hard. You are all still a part of my live and I just wanted you all to know that.
Take care everyone,
Sid6.9- "If weird was a person, he'd be me!" :-)
Hey look at this, I'm not dead!!! - Sid6.9 - 2000-05-17 00:00:00
-You're still the man, Siddy. :) - SM_007 - 2000-05-18 00:00:00
-I'm glad you are ok... - Reed - 2000-05-17 00:00:00
--...but I still want to find out if I won the Death Match, hehe =) - Reed - 2000-05-17 00:00:00
---of course you didn't. don't be silly. :) - Tridus - 2000-05-18 00:00:00
-:) - Tridus - 2000-05-17 00:00:00
--Re::) - Sid6.9 - 2000-05-17 00:00:00